My Transition

My last blog was nearly 6 months ago and quite alot has happened which i will write about in the coming weeks as for my latest blog it will be a look back at what has happened over the last few months and hopefully will be humorous in places too. I suppose i should start with the downside to the last few months my biological family seem to have turned full circle again and seem less than interested in anything that i have gone thru whether that was the news from the gender service back in April or being assaulted whilst being burgled and on the phone to the police at same time none of my family made any effort to contact whilst in A&E or when i got home or even in the coming days not one single to phone call to ask if was ok or if needed anything that answers my question if i needed it to be answered as for my nephew he keeps referring to me as an it he seems to think that's acceptable he has also convinced Dorothy yo refer to me as it too hope they realise Karma is a bitch.

Its hard to believe how much life has changed in the last 3 or 4 years,thinking back to where i was in 2015 to where i am today in 2019 even i sometimes think i am dreaming but its not a dream its real and so much has changed for the better,one of the scariest things is taking that first step convincing yourself you will have no friends no family and everyone that knows you will turn their back on you and you will be alone couldn't be further from the truth ever if anything i have more true friends now than i ever had and most of my family haven't turned their back on me at all,i am not saying it's perfect but it never was but i can say it is a work in progress and even though i know how big a step i have taken and come to terms with the truth for some people it takes a little longer to the point where you have to be patient with them and have faith that it will work out right in the end. There are times when i am misgendered and called sir or Mr especially when i am on the

After what seems longer than it has been I now have some news that has given me something to look forward to and found out what has happened since my last appointment at the gender service back in May when I went through the GRC,the waiting time for my second referral for surgery should have been roughly 6 months but with having heard nothing in the last few months I was beginning to wonder what the delay was so the delay is down to only having one doctor to do referrals at the minute and new doctors being trained which takes time and the latest information I have is that I should get to see a doctor for my second referral in March/April/May next year knowing I have more of an idea of when I am likely to be seen by the second doctor makes a huge difference and has changed my thinking into a positive and not wondering why I haven't been seen yet. The last lead at the gender service has now left and there is a new lead named Kath and she is lovely,I met her for the first time just

Where to start right.......... Firstly i want to clarify the difference between gender and sexuality, my gender is female i identify as a woman and everyone who knows me only sees me as a woman who they know as Angie or Ang and they all call me Angie or Ang my gender identity is as a woman, my sexuality is who i am attracted to and for me that is other women which now makes me a lesbian, i am not attracted to men and don't want to be with a man i only want to be with a woman and hope one day i will meet a special woman who will accept me for who i am. A friend of mine said to me a couple of days i should have reminded her or said something which made me think, i am not the kind of woman who would say something but that's how i am maybe when we have known each other longer then yes i will be more comfortable and will say something but for now i am still a little shy, it's also true that i don't like asking for things whether that's something as small as a cigarette

I have had time to think about having Gender Reassignment Surgery and that is the next major step for me,I have already had my first referral a couple of months ago which i was really pleased with and knowing i am half way there is something very positive, although waiting for the phone call with news on whether i had been accepted for surgery or not seemed to take forever to come but when it did i couldn't stop smiling even now knowing it's sunk in i am still smiling and haven't found myself crying although i personally believe that will come once i have received my second referral in the next few months. The next 2 appointments at the Gender Service will be, 1 to go through my application with John for my GRS and then 2 should be my second referral appointment with the doctor and not sure who that will be once i have the second referral confirmed i can celebrate in one way or another with my friends who have supported me through my transition. I am very lucky and truly

This time last week it was Father's Day which for the last few years was never the best day of the year but this year was so different in many ways i wasn't sad but had a smile on my face remembering how my dad didn't like father's day and made his feelings very clear even recalling my dad telling me he didn't want any cards and told him i wouldn't buy him a card anymore as he didn't agree with it even though i stopped buying him a card i made sure i went to see him usually a couple of days before father's day,there is one thing i do miss about my dad not being here and that is the Saturday's we would spend together chatting about anything and everything and yes my dad knew everything am not even sure i told my dad i think he knew before i even said i word,my one regret has to be that he never got to see the real me and how much happier i am now. Writing a biography has been easier than i thought it would be but trying to remember everything has n