My Transition

Where to start right.......... Firstly i want to clarify the difference between gender and sexuality, my gender is female i identify as a woman and everyone who knows me only sees me as a woman who they know as Angie or Ang and they all call me Angie or Ang my gender identity is as a woman, my sexuality is who i am attracted to and for me that is other women which now makes me a lesbian, i am not attracted to men and don't want to be with a man i only want to be with a woman and hope one day i will meet a special woman who will accept me for who i am. A friend of mine said to me a couple of days i should have reminded her or said something which made me think, i am not the kind of woman who would say something but that's how i am maybe when we have known each other longer then yes i will be more comfortable and will say something but for now i am still a little shy, it's also true that i don't like asking for things whether that's something as small as a cigarette

I have had time to think about having Gender Reassignment Surgery and that is the next major step for me,I have already had my first referral a couple of months ago which i was really pleased with and knowing i am half way there is something very positive, although waiting for the phone call with news on whether i had been accepted for surgery or not seemed to take forever to come but when it did i couldn't stop smiling even now knowing it's sunk in i am still smiling and haven't found myself crying although i personally believe that will come once i have received my second referral in the next few months. The next 2 appointments at the Gender Service will be, 1 to go through my application with John for my GRS and then 2 should be my second referral appointment with the doctor and not sure who that will be once i have the second referral confirmed i can celebrate in one way or another with my friends who have supported me through my transition. I am very lucky and truly

This time last week it was Father's Day which for the last few years was never the best day of the year but this year was so different in many ways i wasn't sad but had a smile on my face remembering how my dad didn't like father's day and made his feelings very clear even recalling my dad telling me he didn't want any cards and told him i wouldn't buy him a card anymore as he didn't agree with it even though i stopped buying him a card i made sure i went to see him usually a couple of days before father's day,there is one thing i do miss about my dad not being here and that is the Saturday's we would spend together chatting about anything and everything and yes my dad knew everything am not even sure i told my dad i think he knew before i even said i word,my one regret has to be that he never got to see the real me and how much happier i am now. Writing a biography has been easier than i thought it would be but trying to remember everything has n