My Transition

Guess what.....i went out drinking in Leeds friday night,yes i was flirting with other girls during the night but i also got to meet my friend Tamara Lea who's birthday we were celebrating that night,i was lucky to meet some of Tamara's friends who were out that night and it turned into a great night out even a boost to my confidence which has been growing lately thanks mainly to my friends like Tee,and Sean at the snooker centre who i have surprised in a nice positive way although now he thinks i am catty but i only do and say things in fun and try have a laugh with Sean just a shame he is a Leeds fan i just won't hold that against him as i can be surrounded by Leeds fans,at least i can boast as we have beaten them twice this year and more than happy being higher in the League than Leeds. Now my confidence is growing again it is making a difference to so many things,my sense of humour has come back and i am as cheeky as i ever was never in a nasty way and always done i...

Am not sure why people can be so hurtful but also why they believe it's acceptable,yet are more than happy with you when you are in front of them,that's a lesson i have learned and trying not to let it get to me that someone seems to think it's more than ok to be nasty,guess what it's their problem not mine. My confidence is growing most days and that is in some way down to the amazing friends i have who are restoring my faith in me,since the beginning of this year my best friend Kim said i should write sayings on my walls to remind of different things and to keep me strong in mind, body and soul,if truth be known i was starting to become a little lazy in certain ways not always doing make up or my hair on, regardless of how i looked i never stopped being or knowing i was a woman and was not doing anything different to every other woman who have days when they dress down,for me i love wearing make up and having my hair on and wearing skirts and dresses i am a true gir...

I have been co-writing a biography with one of my best friends Andrew Milner who has had some books published and knows how to tell a story alot better than me,Andrew is writing the story from my notes i have sent him but also from some memories we shared as we grew up together and spent many years very close in many ways. It has given me a chance to remember so many things that have happened during the last 49 years of my life that i can't change some very good even happy experiences and some the exact opposite,the one thing it has given me is the chance to go back in time and try to work out so many things and answer some of the questions i have been asked but also questions i have been asking myself. My sister Janette said something last year that i never knew and will try and quote verbatim what Janette said.... she said that she had known for years that i was Transgender and should have been a woman but it wasn't upto her to say anything and i would work everything out fo...

I have been debating for the last few days on what my next blog should be about and whether to start doing a more daily or weekly blog like a diary version but online,and will leave that up for discussion as for now personally will write as and when but as have been ill for most of the week and finally starting to feel like a human being again,i am now up for writing this blog. I have to say that as important as it is to hopefully change how people perceive anyone that is trans and living in the gender they should have been born in,i know from personal experience that i also should think or start to think differently and not just assume or expect the worst when i get so many surprises from so many different people who may only meet me the once,there are times when i need to change how i think instead of expecting the worst just go with it hold my head high and smile,i got in a lift a couple of weeks ago quite late and was after midnight and there was someone in the lift who i didn...

Monday 6th February so far has been a very good day and more positive than i ever thought it would be,blood test results my Testosterone level is at 2 thanks to medication i have been taking since May 18th last year but they forgot to test my oestrogen level and have to go back for another blood test on Thursday this week,i am feeling very happy with results i have got today and believe oestrogen level will be higher than 360 from the last round of blood tests i had done last June. I have had laser hair removal treatment today at Arden Clinic based at woodroyd surgery in Bradford and since the first time i went just under 3 weeks ago the treatment has been a little strange as really didn't know what to expect or what it involved,i can say with complete honesty Naseem Shah has been brilliant with me,she has been patient and it has not just been in have treatment and out,Naseem has taken time to talk to me and ask me questions maybe in some way i have helped her learn something not...

I saw some pictures of myself this evening some were only taken last year in April and May and i cant believe how much i have changed, I look so different and that is not even a year ago yet i am looking younger and better than i have ever looked in my life,Yes i am also feeling so much happier than i ever thought possible I received a comment on some pictures i posted about 4 months ago from my friend Lacey who said i was developing nicely especially in my face and at the time i wasn't sure that anything had changed,but i can now see for myself how i am developing into the woman i have always been,Yes i have always been a woman i have tried for too many years to be someone i was never meant to be and that for me took something an experience i would never wish on my worst enemy to go through and one i know i will never go through ever again but it took that shock for me to realise i didn't want to live a lie or pretend to be someone i was never ever meant to be. When i star...

I have known Kim for over 10 years now but its only been the last year that everything has changed between Kim and me,when we met for the first time in Leeds last year i can honestly say i didn't know what to expect of the trip to Leeds and Kim was meeting the real me for the very first time, yes Kim knew about nearly everything but didn't know i was born in the wrong body and should have been a woman from birth,it made no difference to Kim from the first moment we met Kim addressed me as Angie or Ang i was a woman to her and that has not changed one bit in the last year,yes i was a tad late well........ nearly half hour if i'm being honest as it took longer to get organised than i thought it would but i will never forget Kim telling me she thought i was so brave, although i'm still never really sure why Kim thought i was being brave but she sees something i don't,i am pleased to hear such lovely words from my lovely friend Kim is very intuitive even now Kim tells m...