My Transition

I remember talking with John at the gender service last year and learning that the next steps with being in care pathway would be laser hair treatments and electrolysis in Leeds which I had no idea what having electrolysis would be like and knew very little about what the treatments involved even having a sample patch test done made no difference and after having two sessions of laser hair treatments I was informed that my next appointment would be electrolysis and not to shave for 4 days,the first session went very well and managed to switch off enough to not feel too much discomfort with the treatment and was nicely surprised to learn I had done a full hour of treatment and now have had a further 3 full one hour sessions of treatments but now have to go without shaving for 5 days as not enough growth after 4 days my next appointment is in 10 days and will be having laser treatment for a change and that will be on my top lip chin and part of my neck,I have no idea how electrolysis wil...

Its been awhile since my last blog so here is an update on everything that has happened for me since my last blog. In August i got my official diagnosis from the gender service and a care plan with John as long as i keep doing the same things aand moving forward then everything will work out right,the hardest part for me has to be being patient as i know everything takes time and there are no shortcuts,thankfully i have already come further than even i thought i would have done in such a short time as its just gone 2 years since i came out to myself and then started to plan how to do the things i knew i had to do from legally changing my name to being honest with myself,my family and my friends.                                                                                     ...

I was going to write this blog very differently, it was going to start with a negative piece on a so called friend who has let me down over and over but as I was thinking about what to write it started to develop into something that I hadn't realized,my thoughts were turning the negatives into positives and the more I delved into so many things that have happened in the last few months there was a pattern that I started to see, I am a lot more positive than I ever thought I could or would be especially being so shy and having little confidence in my younger days to how I am now,yes I am confident and not as shy as I was and  I have come out of my shell over the last 18 months,I smile so much more than I have ever smiled and at times I have a cheeky glint in my eyes I have even had so many comments and compliments that lift a not so good day into a wonderful day the smallest compliment works wonders. My lovely friend Tamara shared my last blog and she was included in the last blog...

The last blog I wrote was just after starting at the gender identity service in Leeds and didn't really go into too much detail about anything that was discussed with me during my appointments so here is more details on my initial assessment at the gender identity service,that was more to do with all the information I had been given and trying hard to work through so much that writing about it was not possible at that's time but now I can finally put the details in this blog. My appointment was with a lovely man called Gerry and should have gone through everything with him in the hour we had but as we had chatted and had a few laughs Gerry had to make another appointment for 2 weeks later and he went through everything with me during that second appointment,there will be more laser hair removal treatment in the coming weeks and months,the hormone therapy will be overseen by the gender service and prescriptions will be issued through my GP which will be better for me as will h...

good afternoon ladies and gentleman and thank you for taking time to read my blogs To start with there is some very good news, Here goes I have now started at the gender service in Leeds i had my first assesment a couple of weeks ago and have another appointment on thursday this week, and i'm so excited to finaly be able to say i am now where i want to be having tried to wait as patiently as i can even when i get a letter through saying it will be 4 years  to be seen at the gender service. Even after my first appointment it still took me a few days for everything to sink in properly, and can honestly say that it was a very emotional day for me, Yes i couldn't stay in after my appointment and spent most of the day driving around keeping myself busy,the phone call i made to my lovely friend Kim was one of the hardest phone calls i have ever made but that's more to do with being very emotional and trying my best not to cry whilst on the phone was quite difficult but i mana...

At the beginning of March i wrote a blog trying to remember my first day at work as a woman,it was done in a humorous way and hopefully made people smile even laugh at some of the things that were in that blog,looking back to that very first day the one constant was how confident i was and everything was so natural and easy for me although the cold wind getting through my thick tights and making my legs feel even colder than it was is not the nicest feeling ever,but it didn't dampen my spirits or my confidence and loved every second of my first day my sister Janette telling me now i know how it feels to be a woman and making even the not so good feel right and natural. Yes that was just over a year ago and many things have changed since that first day,the biggest change has to be ME,the changes are not just in appearance or physical,there have been so many ups countless firsts even a few downs but i am still here and still fighting and will continue to be the strong wonderful w...

OMG  Is it only 5 days till my birthday,this year will be a very positive and happy time i am so looking forward to celebrating my birthday maybe that's simply because i am 50 or maybe cos i am finally happier than i have ever been before in my life now i am the woman i was born to be,and i am being my true self,yes its taken longer than some people but i finally got here and moving forward in life,i will not say every day is easy as there are days when i struggle with little things but i have learnt to do things differently,and i also know that i have some truly amazing friends who are with me every step of the way on my journey into womanhood,i keep receiving so many compliments and positive comments on many things which boosts my confidence and i do need to keep pushing myself and keep up all the good things i have done in the last 12 months. My friend Naseem complimented me on being helpful and wanting to help others whether that's through my blogs,biography or just off...